am i dead?

So I'm not going to say the past week has been a blast because it hasn't. I have:
-spent more hours in my bed than should ever be allowed
-watched more LOST than a human should be able to handle
-hung out with zero people
-been in more pain than I can really remember
-missed people desperately


All because of my blasted wisdom teeth. Okay, I can't blame it all on my teeth, but seriously worst thing ever. Dry sockets are painful, that's not a myth. The dressing they put in the dry sockets to help them heal, the stuff with cloves on it=MY WORST ENEMY. When this whole thing is over I never want to smell or taste cloves ever again. EVER. It makes everything taste gross, which leads to a hatred of eating, which leads to a lack of eating, which leads to nausea, which leads to throwing up, which leads to feeling disgusting, which leads to being exhausted, which leads to spending hours upon hours in bed with no one around. Feel free to call me a baby, I understand that I am horrible at tolerating pain and at not throwing up in the first place, but seriously? Not an okay situation. Wisdom teeth, I hope you're happy. Thanks for ruining my last full week in Minnesota.




On the bright side, I have been able to spend some more time with Mama Ji and take lil' Rufio on evening walks to get ourselves moving after a day of netflix, make brownies, and have proceeded to eat some more solid foods. Progress.

xoxo

This past week has been really hard for me, I've let myself get pretty down about Mitchell being gone. It is definitely the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with. But I've also realized how lucky I am for so many reasons. I can hardly wait to go back to Provo and start school and move into my new apartment with my amazing roommates and go to football games and have Teresa come visit me and spend time with all of my friends that I haven't seen for what seems like forever. I'm really ready for a new year, to experience new things, build stronger friendships, welcome a what I assume will be beautiful new niece into the world, and spend time with my older siblings again. The other night I seriously couldn't fall asleep because I was getting so excited about Fall semester finally rolling around. By the time school starts, I will have had almost a five month summer and I am ready to get back in the swing of things, start working again (need me some monaysssss), and feel productive. I will be devastated to leave my friends here in Minnesota again but I still have a few weeks to get in with them. I also cannot freaking wait to go to Texas soon and see two of my best friends getting married. Sarah and Chadsie...so excited. I'll leave you with some picture updates of muh lyfe. 

was finally reunited with zachy and tore up valleyfair

celebrated em's big 19 (or 61) birthday

went to Matt Nathanson show with jordy, reesie, and al

became a bowling pro 

caught up with some rugby ladies

And last, but certainly not least, I got my wisdom teeth out yesterday and have had the pleasure of feeling disgusting for the past 24 hours. If anyone wants to see a cute snapshot I took of myself while on drugs, you can just ask Melissa....hahahah

xoxo e

"It isn't always as bad as you sometimes think it is. It all works out. Don't worry. I say that to myself every morning. It will all work out. If you do your best, it will all work out. Put your trust in God, and move forward with faith and confidence in the future. The Lord will not forsake us. If we put our trust in Him, if we will pray to Him, if we will live worthy of His blessings, He will hear our prayers."

--Gordon B. Hinckley

i can do it.

The Civility Experiment

willing to help

"I firmly believe that the sweetest experience in mortality is to know that our Heavenly Father has worked through us to accomplish an objective in the life of another person--to help make someone whole. Extend the hand that helps and the heart that knows compassion."

--Thomas S. Monson

just some thoughts

Being home I've had a lot of time to think. Not even about anything in particular but there's just a lot of time to think. I've had a lot of time to miss people, to learn why I don't miss others, and to reevaluate myself and the past year I've had. I didn't realize how much I had changed while being out at school until I got home and was back with my high school friends. No major changes but just in the small things. I'm grateful that I've been able to see these things and kind of figure out what the good changes are and what things could go back to the way they used to be. I think it's important to remember that you can always be better. There are always changes that can be made and things that can be worked on. I love that about life. 


If there's not charity behind everything we do, it's not worth doing.

#lakelife

So I've now been home for over a week and it's been nice. Once again, I have nothing to stress me out, no work, no school, no agenda. Netflix has become my new (not really new) best friend, along with being able to be back with my amigos from high school. Fourth of July was spent at a family friend's pool and then the evening on Lake Minnetonka on Papa Dee's boat. #lakelife

It was an absolutely perfect day and the sky was unbelievable as the sun set. So beautiful. 

I got my first letter from Mitchell on Tuesday which probably made me the happiest girl in the world. I am loving the carefree life aka #lakelife